i hate you
you made me this
you cut me up
you threw me out
(like a peice of trash)
you called me names
you broke my heart
you betrayed my soul
you disected my feelings
you gave me nothing
you ruined my life
you screwed me up
you never even cared
you fucked me up
you held my hands
(until i bled)
you led me on
you told me secrets
(just what i wanted to hear but shouldnt have heard)
you let me fall
you HELPED me fall
you asked for my sympathy
(and gave me none in return)
you destroyed my innocence
you made me distrought
you gave me insomnia
(lie awake remembering)
you made me what i am and then
"if you're scared you cant hold me up,
then remember,
at least we'll drown together.
i'll love you forever."
i say it but i dont know if i mean it
i want it but im not sure if i should say no
i know you feel the same way but i wonder if you do
i cant hold you up, shall we go down together my love?
"hold on to me love, you know i cant stay long... all i wanted to say was 'i love you and im not afraid'"
if you wish to contact me to find my new account, please email me at beepenguinofdoom@yahoo.com
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thank you ALLL for your support and kindness when i left.
-baylen
its been a long time since ive posted a journal
oh my
it really has
so what have i been up to
exams
ive done alright so far
there hasnt been much going on at all actually
no concerts
no amazing pictures
not much at all
theres no punctuation in this journal
isnt that fun
doesnt it make it look a bit emotionless
yes well
this is getting boring
im even boring myself
and im really quite easily amused
my english teacher has asked i go to the art teacher second hour with her wednesday
she says hes seen my art and would like to enter it in an art show
whatever
more later
goodbye